purging.
consolidating.
getting rid of legacy code.
claiming space.
pressin’ on.
optimizing.

turns out this materialistic age wasn’t about things at all, but obsession with symbols : if the thing doesn’t match the idea, we toss it out, eager for another.
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the idea of how things should be, of course, is carefully orchestrated by a media cabal of body hatred.
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the new materialism: taking care of your own things. take your body with you.

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stochastic differential by Betatester.
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yesterday i ran an anime marathon, watching the last 5 episodes of ghost hound, an anime about syncronicities, OBE, spirits and stem-cell research, among others. And activation of the pineal gland.
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sadly, the last episode - "stochastic resonance" - i had only in japanese original, so I couldn’t finish it.
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today, I got stuck in the traffic, and that’s the book right in front of me.
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I moved to brooklyn with friends for a change. After more than one year sulking about the death of a relationship, I feel way happier now. let’s see where it leads me and wish me luck.
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I’m f***ing flash, bitches! by Betatester.
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I found this hat on the floor by Betatester.

Because our digital shadow grows exponentially and more and more we can be attacked on this field, I decided to summon a familiar to help me out.
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My familiar is a squirrel that orbits my neck rapidly (think firefox logo), and it’s always eager and curious. The idea is that pairing with an open system like me, but built with a complete different structure, we can help each other to survive on this information rain.
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It uses my cellphone (or any database nears him) as a storage point (nuts!) and shelter.
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Touching on anything, he can grab information about the structure, based on traffic data.
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Powers:

• Timing: Playing with packets, my squirrel can cause turbulence.
• Debug:
• Traffic Analysis: a basic “Who’s your daddy?” query, difficulty based on the secrecy of the system.
• Power Surge/Randomizer: Randomize a system, from small chaos to utter collapse. Force outcomes (good or bad) on stale systems. Shaking things.
• Detect Hub/Triangulation: Basic detection to find power islands and scan the field. Used to Mute/Surge Network and Packet Weather Forecast (find best spots to work on).
• Befriend Encrypted Packet: Used for Two-Tiered Communication.

It woke up at 5 am today with a complete list of outside-in and inside-out emotions. It was so clear on my mind, that I decided to write it down.
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Joy may look like outside-in, but only happens if the inside-out allows it.
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Horniness is easily triggered by outside-in. After that, the inside-out sets the tone.

Time happens simultaneously: subatomic particles pulse in sync, and can only be disrupted, creating pockets of time.
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Karma is a rapid feedback from inside-outside. Backpropagation.
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Trauma is an inside-out reaction to previous outside-in events. It pulses and triggers karma to relive personal dramas. Understanding how trauma irradiates and negotiates events to happen - because it looks so outside-in - is one of the greatest mysteries: just watching its flow delivers great insights.
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Backpropagation is kinda like a system self-regulation.
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Stress, like horniness, is easily triggered by outside-in, activating a chain of events inside-out. Easily addictive, at least in our society.
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Peace of mind is a time/karma disruptor, a constant inside-out force. Triggered by acceptance.
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Acceptance is a complete inside-out program, triggered when the outside-in transmits signs of a safe/stable environment. It may the be opposite of stress: although you may have none, acceptance can’t flourish in a stressful environment, and stress’ chain of events is hindered by acceptance’s time disruptors.
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Beauty is when outside ressonates and gives form to an inside process. Outside-in and heavily sought, because it brings acceptance.

rushkoff as always, nails it:
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Realistic simulation (…) applications across the full spectrum of human storytelling may be a symptom of our society’s continuing devaluation of anything that can’t be understood on a literal level. It’s the same trend that’s replacing fictional television with “reality” programming, interfaith dialogue with intolerant fundamentalism, feel-good patriotism with strident nationalism. There are no symbols, just real things.